06 July,2011 02:54 PM IST | | ANI
A US journalist staged her own rape to cure a post traumatic stress disorder (PTSD), which had been brought about by a Haitian woman's real sex attack
Mac McClelland met a woman she called Sybille who had been raped at gunpoint and brutally mutilated by a gang of men when she visited Haiti to report on rape victims a year after the 2010 earthquake.
According to ABC, she became progressively enveloped in the classic symptoms of post-traumatic stress, avoidance of feelings, flashbacks and recurrent thoughts that triggered crying spells. There were smells that made her gag.
The Mother Jones civil rights reporter told a therapist in her home of San Francisco that all she wanted to do was have incredibly violent sex.
Following the stage violence rape after the approval of her therapist, McClelland believes that she was cured.
In an article she wrote for the online magazine 'Good', she explained how her sexual partner mercilessly pinned her, beat her about the head and brutally violated her.
"I did not enjoy it in the way a person getting screwed normally would. But as it became clear that I could endure it, I started to take deeper breaths," the Daily Mail quoted her as saying.
"And my mind stayed there, stayed present even when it became painful, even when he suddenly smothered me with a pillow, not to asphyxiate me but so that he didn't break my jaw when he drew his elbow back and slammed his fist into my face. Two, three, four times.
"My body felt devastated but relieved; I'd lost, but survived. After he climbed off me, he gathered me up in his arms. I broke into a thousand pieces on his chest, sobbing so hard that my ribs felt like they were coming loose.'
u00a0"I was not crazy. It was a way for me to deal in sort of a simulated, but controlled situation. I could say "stop" at any time. But it was still awful, and the body doesn't understand when it's in a fight," she added.
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