Exclusive | Neelam Giri admits they were at fault on body shaming Ashnoor Kaur

In a surprising double eviction twist on Bigg Boss 19 Bhojpuri star Neelam Giri bid an emotional farewell to the house after Pranit More was asked to choose between the bottom three contestants mdash Neelam Ashnoor and Tanya Pranit chose to save Ashnoor leading to Neelamrsquos exitIn an exclusive chat with midday Neelam opened up about her journey her bittersweet bond with Tanya Mittal and the lessons shersquos taking away from her time on the showldquoI feel like this is a family and Irsquom missing out on everythingrdquo she shared emotionally ldquoIrsquove spent so much time with them that I was refusing to go to my own house It was such a big deal for me I realised that Irsquove earned so much respect and fame here mdash and thatrsquos a big thing But at the end of the day itrsquos a part of the gamerdquoOn her equation with Tanya MittalNeelamrsquos friendship with cocontestant Tanya Mittal became one of the most talkedabout dynamics in the house mdash filled with affection irritation and honest confrontationsldquoItrsquos true that Irsquove told Tanya not to lie many timesrdquo Neelam admitted ldquoThere was a point when I used to irritate her telling her to stop throwing tantrums But then Irsquod remind myself mdash itrsquos okay thatrsquos her nature What can I dordquoNeelam shared that she always wished the best for Tanya even when she wasnrsquot sure about the authenticity of some of her claims ldquoEverything she said about her business and herself I would cross my fingers and hope it was all true I would be really happy if thatrsquos the case If she really is that successful it would be amazing mdash Irsquod feel proud that shersquos my friend Maza aa jayegardquoHowever things turned tense when Tanya started speaking to Farrhana mdash someone Neelam had a fallout with ldquoWhen she started talking to Farhana I was literally hurtrdquo Neelam revealed ldquoThis was someone who had done me wrong and suddenly my friend was talking to her I was very hurt at that time and I said something to Tanya I donrsquot regret it because I was expressing my feelings honestly Later she understood I love her a lot mdash thatrsquos why I reactedrdquoOn her equation with Farrhana and othersReflecting on her bond with the other contestants Neelam shared that she wants to continue friendships with almost everyone ldquoI would like to continue my bond with everyone from the house mdash theyrsquove all been good to me except onerdquo she said candidlyReferring to her strained relationship with Farrhana Neelam added ldquoI had even said that Irsquod extend my hand of friendship to Farrhana if she apologises to me But we all know she wouldnrsquot do thatrdquoInterestingly Neelam also shared that Farhana was surprisingly kind during their last interactions ldquoI had no idea what was going on She was very nice to me She never said anything harmful to me We actually had a healthy conversationrdquoOn her dynamic with AshnoorNeelam also opened up about her rapport with Ashnoor who survived the eviction ldquoAshnoor never said anything bad to me She was very nice to merdquo Neelam said warmly ldquoWe made a mistake when we made fun of her but all three of us mdash Tanya me and her mdash were equally at fault Itrsquos not like I said a lot or Tanya said a lot we were all equally responsible All three of us should have said sorry I did she didnrsquot mdash but itrsquos okayrdquoDespite the ups and downs Neelam looks back at her Bigg Boss 19 journey with gratitude and emotion ldquoIrsquove realised that what I got from this show mdash love recognition and friendships mdash means so much more than the trophyrdquo she said ldquoI will cherish these memories foreverrdquo