I live in fear every day: Kobe Bryant's wife

Vanessa Bryant testified that she was only beginning to grieve the loss of her husband basketball star Kobe Bryant and their daughter Gianna 13 when she was faced with the fresh horror of learning that sheriffrsquos deputies and firefighters had shot and shared photos of their bodies at the site of the helicopter crash that killed themldquoI felt like I wanted to run run down the block and screamrdquo she said on Friday her tears turning to sobs and her voice quickeninglsquoI canrsquot escapersquoldquoIt was like the feeling of wanting to run down a pier and jump into the water The problem is I canrsquot escape I canrsquot escape my bodyrdquo During her three hours on the witness stand in a Los Angeles federal court where she is suing LA County for invasion of privacy over the pictures Bryant said she had fought to get through both public and private memorials for her loved ones and seven others who were killed on January 26 2020 and thought she was ready to really begin the grieving process about a month laterVanessa Bryant arrives at LA Federal Court on Friday to testify over graphic photos taken by first responders at the helicopter crash site that killed her husband Kobe Bryant daughter Gianna and seven others in January 2020 PicsGetty ImagesShe was with friends and her surviving daughters and holding her 7monthold baby when she received a call about a Los Angeles Times story on the crashsite photos ldquoI bolted out of the house and around to the side so my girls wouldnrsquot seerdquo she said ldquoI was blindsided again devastated hurt I trusted them I trusted them not to do these thingsrdquoEvidence presented at trial showed that a sheriffrsquos deputy showed a photo of Bryantrsquos body to a bartender as he drank spurring an official complaint from another man drinking nearby and that firefighters shared them with each other at an awards banquet Others shared them with spouses An attorney for the county said the photos had been taken only because they were essential for assessing the site moments after the crash and that when LA County Sheriff Alex Villanueva learned they were being shared he demanded they all be deletedAlso Read World no1 Daniil Medvedev In form as US Open loomsNo photos emerged publicly but Vanessa Bryant said she has constant worry that some still might ldquoI live in fear every day of being on social media and these popping uprdquo she testifiedShe said the thought keeps her awake at night as she lies next to her threeyearold and her fiveyearold and sometimes leads to panic attacks in which she canrsquot breathe Under crossexamination from J Mira Hashmall the lawyer representing LA County at the trial Bryant testified that she had not received any medical diagnosis of having had panic attacks or any mental health disorder nor had she taken any medications for themDraining therapy sessionsShe said she had talked to a therapist for about 18 months after the crash but had not since ldquoI feel like sometimes it helpsrdquo Bryant said ldquobut sometimes itrsquos completely drainingrdquoHashmall spent much of her 90minute crossexamination going through the business roles Bryant now plays including acting as president of her husbandrsquos multimedia company Granity Studios overseeing the publication of one book he wrote and helping to finish and publish anotherThis story has been sourced from a third party syndicated feed agencies Midday accepts no responsibility or liability for its dependability trustworthiness reliability and data of the text Midday managementmiddaycom reserves the sole right to alter delete or remove without notice the content in its absolute discretion for any reason whatsoever