Updated On: 03 December, 2023 08:00 AM IST | Mumbai | Sucheta Chakraborty
Shweta Singh Kirti writes about the spiritual journey she charted out of pain and offers wisdom in her new book which she wrote after the passing of Sushant Singh Rajput

Sushant Singh Rajput and Shweta Singh Kiri
Losing a loved one actually feels like you have lost a part of yourself. It feels like somebody has put a spear in your heart and is twisting and turning it. I knew that pain, I was going through that pain,” Shweta Singh Kirti, a NIFT-trained fashion designer with an MBA degree, tells us over a video call from her home in California. Kirti’s new book, Pain: A Portal to Enlightenment (Ebury), which begins by outlining significant moments from her early life and the loss of several family members including older siblings, her beloved mother and then younger brother and Bollywood star Sushant Singh Rajput, traces a spiritual journey from a place of profound suffering. She writes about going for solitary retreats after Sushant’s death, to a Buddhist institution called Land of Calm Abiding (LOCA) in the mountains of California, near a town called Ragged Point. “I went there with two things in mind, one being that I was in a lot of pain, and the second being that I had this immense faith in spirituality. I knew that if something could help me, it would be the practices, the meditation,” says Kirti, sharing that family values had her believe from a young age that a higher power overlooked all creation. “My mom did a very good job [inculcating the idea] early on. I remember she would ask us to pray to the deities and ask for what we wanted. She already knew what we’d ask for and keep the objects ready so that we’d believe that God had granted them. A strong faith developed early on.”